Getty ImagesI am torn. Torn between being naive and believing that Ryan Braun is innocent and torn between abandoning my admiration for a player that could stand to cheat the game. I am torn between grasping onto the last bit of optimism surrounding Braun and baseball as a whole and becoming a baseball naysayer and cynic (which I don't want to be). I am leaning towards holding on to that last bit of optimism.
Not because I'm ignorant of the fact that a player has never reversed a positive test. Or because I support the "unknowingly" defense, but because I'd like to believe that I live in a world where my favorite athlete isn't this stupid. I'd like to believe that a player doesn't need PEDs to hit 33 HR. I'd like to believe that I lived in a time when all my heroes weren't dethroned and crowned cheaters right before my eyes. I'd to believe these things and I'm going to...for a little while longer.
Braun's camp is standing strong, "There are highly unusual circumstances surrounding this case which will support Ryan's complete innocence and demonstrate there was absolutely no intentional violation of the program. While Ryan has impeccable character and no previous history, unfortunately, because of the process we have to maintain confidentiality and are not able to discuss it any further, but we are confident he will ultimately be exonerated." I guess he has a special case. I, like most people, am hesitant buy this. I'm not that naive, but I am going to let everything play out. Innocent until proven guilty. I'll stand by my favorite player for a little while longer, I don't have much of a choice, it's all or nothing at this point.
Guilty or not guilty. Knowingly or Unknowningly. I do think that Braun has a chance to do something noble. I want to see Braun step up and VOLUNTEER to be tested, every month, every week, hell test him every series I don't care. I would like to see him have the first documented guaranteed PED-free season. I think that this could at least show that he cares about the game, which is what I really care about. I could give a (sh*t) if Braun misses 50 games, but I would like to think that he gives a (sh*t) about the integrity of the game.
I truly hope there is some crazy situation with Braun. I hope it was a failed test or what have you, but I'm as real as the next guy - It's never happened before, I get it. I just don't have much of a choice other than to take that last shred of optimistic fan that I have left in me and cherish and save for a little while longer.
All of this two days after my favorite basketball player retired from the game at the age of 27.